It was a struggle to deal with feelings of worthlessness and failure. My pride was hurt. Why was it that I was not strong enough to handle the work? I looked like a failure. Where others were strong, I was weak.
Apparently, God really wants me to work on my humility. After I had been at home for a little while and was starting to feel better I decide to go outside and go on a run. All was well, I was feeling great, and then boom…
I fall and sprain my ankle. Okay, God, I think. I need to find peace with resting!
I hate not being in control. I hate being forced to rest. But it’s obviously something I need to work on.
I’ve often made the mistake of placing my worth in how others think of me. I’ve forgotten that my path is different than others. I have to choose to accept MY path that God has set before me in this exact moment, even though I may feel incredibly weak. As St. Paul says:
Therefore, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and constraints for the sake of Christ; for when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Corinthians 12:10)
