changes & gratitude

It’s a crazy, upside down, unexpected life, I’ll tell ya. I have to remind myself that I’m not even supposed to be in this country right now. I was supposed to be in Ireland until December. WHAT. Apparently, Jesus thought all I experienced all I needed to in three months. And you know what, it still hurts that I didn’t get my dream of exploring Europe. I didn’t get the adventure I was expecting or hoping for. And that’s hard. I’ve been home for two months now and it still hurts. Even though I’m happy with how everything has ended up and I’m incredibly grateful for the lessons I learned while in Ireland and the confidence that I gained, it still hurts. Don’t you hate it when God doesn’t follow your plan? You think I would’ve learned by now that doesn’t work out, but alas…

I have to keep reminding myself that I’m not even supposed to be in this country right now. I was supposed to be in Ireland until Christmas. But you know, Jesus thought I experienced what I needed in three months. It hurts that I didn’t really get my dream of exploring Europe. I didn’t get the adventure I expected to. I’ve been home for two months now and it still hurts. But I’m so so grateful for the lessons I learned and the confidence I gained. A lot had to happen for me to get to Ireland. And a lot had to happen for me to come home. Sometimes I think back to how stressed I used to get over discerning what I was supposed to be doing. Past me felt she had to keep her eyes peeled at every moment. But I don’t feel that’s true anymore. Jesus will make it very clear. He will move freaking mountains to get you where you need to go. I was supposed to be in Ireland. I needed to gain that experience, that confidence, that deeper relationship with Christ. But then He called me to come home to different opportunities. He called me to be there for the people I loved. So don’t worry that you will miss your calling. Jesus will push you out of the door if necessary. You just have to say yes when he does.

I have to keep reminding myself that I’m not even supposed to be in this country right now. I was supposed to be in Ireland until Christmas. But you know, Jesus thought I experienced what I needed in three months. It hurts that I didn’t really get my dream of exploring Europe. I didn’t get the adventure I expected to. I’ve been home for two months now and it still hurts. But I’m so so grateful for the lessons I learned and the confidence I gained. A lot had to happen for me to get to Ireland. And a lot had to happen for me to come home. Sometimes I think back to how stressed I used to get over discerning what I was supposed to be doing. Past me felt she had to keep her eyes peeled at every moment. But I don’t feel that’s true anymore. Jesus will make it very clear. He will move freaking mountains to get you where you need to go. I was supposed to be in Ireland. I needed to gain that experience, that confidence, that deeper relationship with Christ. But then He called me to come home to different opportunities. He called me to be there for the people I loved. So don’t worry that you will miss your calling. Jesus will push you out of the door if necessary. You just have to say yes when he does.

I have to keep reminding myself that I’m not even supposed to be in this country right now. I was supposed to be in Ireland until Christmas. But you know, Jesus thought I experienced what I needed in three months. It hurts that I didn’t really get my dream of exploring Europe. I didn’t get the adventure I expected to. I’ve been home for two months now and it still hurts. But I’m so so grateful for the lessons I learned and the confidence I gained. A lot had to happen for me to get to Ireland. And a lot had to happen for me to come home. Sometimes I think back to how stressed I used to get over discerning what I was supposed to be doing. Past me felt she had to keep her eyes peeled at every moment. But I don’t feel that’s true anymore. Jesus will make it very clear. He will move freaking mountains to get you where you need to go. I was supposed to be in Ireland. Now I’m supposed to be here in Texas, starting a different kind of life than I thought.

Anyway. Focusing on gratitude. Five things I’m grateful for:

New Job: I found a job! I will be the Marketing/Communications Assistant at a local parish. It’s still unbelievable to me that I somehow managed to find a job in the midst of a pandemic. Especially considering a lot of Catholic churches have had to make budget cuts. I am so grateful! I start TOMORROW. My first real actual professional adult job. 🙂

Apartment Shopping: I get to look at apartments with a great friend. No joke deciding to return to the U.S., one of my first thoughts were that maybe we could get an apartment together. We’ve been through a lot together and have roomed together throughout college. So thankful God is making that happen! Though I will say, no one mentioned to me how overwhelming and horrendous apartment shopping can be.

Baby Cuddles: Sweet two month old nephew/godbaby who is growing like a weed! He’s such a good little baby.

C.S. Lewis: Currently reading The Four Loves as part of a book club with friends. Even though I LOVE reading and am literally always reading something, it’s normally fiction. I like to read fiction to zone out and wind down. However, whenever I read C.S. Lewis, I always remember how good it can be to read more theological/philosophical works.

Ending with a quote from G.K. Chesterton:

“When it comes to life the critical thing is whether you take things for granted or take them with gratitude.” (Can a I get an amen?!)

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Happy Tuesday, friends!


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